I want to apologize for going on hiatus the last couple of
days. I’ve not felt well at all and it’s been all I can do to sit up long
enough to do my work, much less try to blog. So, that said, I’m a little bit
sad, a little bit mad, a little bit frustrated, and a little bit glad. I had to
break the cleanse last night.
Now, to be fair, my heart was never in this. I wasn’t doing
it because I wanted to; I was doing it because I had to. Because my Coke habit
had gotten way out of control, as had my coffee habit. Then the thing with my
hands…I’ve been making myself sick and I had to try to undo the damage and get
started in the right direction.
However, it looks like that as wonderful as the Master
Cleanse was for me last time around, it was not the answer this time. I’ve felt
bad the entire time, and yesterday was the worst. If it were just headaches or
nausea, I could have dealt with that and continued. But I was severely dizzy
all day yesterday. I had to go to town and got scared a couple of times that I
might pass out while driving. I made it home fine, but the dizziness only got
worse.
Something’s Not Right
Finally, I checked my blood pressure, since I am prone to
having lower blood pressure anyway. In fact, I believe the only reason I’m not
on low blood pressure medicine is because I smoke and have tons of caffeine.
Even with that, my blood pressure stays in the perfectly normal range most of
the time. But last night, it was abnormally low—and every time I’d check it
after that, I’d just be lower.
My husband and I decided that I must have something to eat
to get my blood pressure back up. Knowing that breaking the cleanse the wrong
way will result in severe stomach pain and nausea, I thought that maybe just
licking on a spoon of peanut butter would help…but I couldn’t get it down. So I
opted for a bowl of chicken noodle soup, which has tons of sodium in it. It
brought my blood pressure to just within normal ranges, but not much more.
As much as I really wanted to be done with the cleanse, I
also didn’t want to give up before it had time to work. Plus, I have all this
syrup and just bought a ton more lemons yesterday. So I’ve spent the day trying
to rethink my approach, not sure as to whether I should continue or not. Then,
about an hour ago, my blood pressure pretty much made the decision for me…it
was lower than it was even last night—I could barely stand up properly.
Being Flexible
I’m not entirely sure yet what I’m going to do. All I know
is that if I try to continue this cleanse with it bottoming out my blood
pressure, I’m going to end up really sick. I have to eat at least a small meal
every day. So I think what I’m going to try is to continue drinking the
lemonade throughout the day, but allow myself at least one reasonable meal per
day. I know I won’t get near the cleansing benefits—I may not get any at all—but
it would be stupid to continue in this manner knowing that I could pass out any
moment from low blood pressure.
Wellness is a great deal about learning to listen to your
body and taking action to give it what it needs. Right now, my body needs food.
So, as true to form as it would be for me to beat myself up about failing, I
have resolved not to. If the goal is wellness, and this path is leading away
from that, then it is not a failure for me to listen to what my body is saying.
There is something good that has come from this, though…and I’ll discuss that
in another post.
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