Monday, March 24, 2014

Thinking of a Change

I’d apologize for my absence of late, but that gets old after a while—lol. No, there are several reasons why I haven’t made any posts in a while. The challenge of finding the time to write anything of my own remains right up there near the top. But, I’ve been thinking about making a major change with my blog, and the more I think about it, the more I feel like it’s the right direction to take. This is going to be one of those epically long posts, just so you know in advance.

When I started My Coke Addiction, there were several influencing factors. I’d been wanting to start my own blog for a while…just a place where I could write for me with little other purpose than sharing my thoughts, ideas, and opinions—whether they were ever read by anyone else or not. When I realized the great play on words about my unnatural dependence on soft drinks, I was so giddy that I just about couldn’t stand it. How perfect! Better snap that up before someone else does!

Today, I feel like the name of my blog is so far from me that I’m no longer inspired to write for it. I tried revamping the look and feel, and that helped a little while, but still wasn’t satisfying. It simply doesn’t fit me anymore.

I have tons and tons of ideas for posts, but none of which I feel would make much sense in the original scope of this site. No, I haven’t overcome my consumption of soft drinks. No, I haven’t claimed that healthy lifestyle that I’d like to have. In fact, I’ve achieved very little toward much of anything in terms of long-term lifestyle goals during that time.

Realizing My Identity

Most of my goals remain, at least on some level, but my life view has changed quite dramatically. See, I’ve been a Child of the King for many, many years now, but only in the last few months have I really begun to grasp the reality of what that means. An eternity in the presence of my Lord, yes…no brainer there. But what it means for me while I’m still here on this earth…how that has managed to elude me all these years is a mystery to me, but a concept that I am coming to understand—at least as much as my finite mind is capable of understanding.

As believers, there are a lot of things we know to be true in our head, but struggle when it comes to getting it down into our heart. What I have realized is that I had no trouble trusting God on things that I could not possibly control anyway—you know, things like my eternal fate. But when it came to things that I thought I could control…. “No, Lord—I got this one. I’ll handle it. Don’t need Your input here.” Or maybe I’d ask for help, but it was for help doing it my way, not a request for divine guidance or a submission to His will.

Now this grand revelation—it’s so simple that I struggle with the idea of calling it a revelation in the first place—it’s so simple and yet so powerful. This is something I’ve known all my life. It’s something I’ve believed all my life. So the idea itself was not the revelation….the revelation was coming to terms with how little faith I’ve had in what I knew and believed. And that was this: God is all powerful, bigger than anything we can attempt to conceive of, full of grace, mercy, love, and justice, and HE LOVES AND CARES FOR ME!

Why would I trust the Creator of everything to save my eternal soul and then not trust Him with the details and struggles of my life? Why would I think that He wouldn’t care about my daily decisions and challenges? Why would I not seek His wisdom and guidance in every area of my life? I think there are several answers here, but the one that sticks out the most is that I was failing to truly understand my identity in Him.

Owning My Identity

I think that far too often, our inability to fully grasp the majesty of God leads us to try to put Him in a box. Granted, it’s a big box, but it’s still a box. We try to understand His grace and power in relative terms of what we can see and imagine. We cannot wrap our heads around the ultimate meaning of “limitless” or “infinite” and so we just imagine the biggest thing we can and then say God’s just a little bit bigger. When we begin to realize our misguided way of thinking about God, however, it’s incredibly humbling. He’s so amazing that we can’t even conceive of it, much less understand it!

Then come the questions of broken humility. Why would the Maker of heaven and earth be concerned about how many hours I put in at work or what’s in my bank account? Why would He care one iota about the extra 50 pounds I’m carrying around and how they got there? What possible interest would the Supreme Ruler of all time and space have in something as small and insignificant as my life, how tired I am, and the state of my heart? He’s got bigger, more important things to deal with than little old me.

When you put the first together with the second and realize that this awesome Creator cares because He loves you, it’s life changing. Of all the things in the universe, both discovered and undiscovered, as complex and beautiful as they are, He still concerns Himself with me. My soul and my heart, and those of yours, are still more important to Him than the all the galaxies of the entire universe. They are more beautiful to Him than the most breathtaking landscape or most intricate flower. They are more valuable to Him than anything else in all His creation!

Wow, right? Just…wow! And to think that all these years I’ve known this, and even experienced it in very real and personal ways, and it still somehow failed to really sink into the depths of my heart. Scratch that….the depths of my very existence. My identity is not in my successes, my failures, my struggles, or my various roles as wife, mother, daughter, friend, or writer.

My identity is 100 percent in my value as a child of God. It is in being His creation. It is in being loved and cherished by someone who had absolutely no obligation of loving or cherishing me, but did so anyway and made an unbreakable, holy promise that He always would. Whatever I accomplish or don’t accomplish does not make me any more or less valuable to the One who loves me.

When you really begin to understand that, you fall in love with God in a way that is indescribable. You understand who you are and what you were made for. I was made for eternity. Anything that I might do in this life—anything I might experience—it’s all just icing on the cake. Even the hardships and heartbreaks.

It’s all part of His perfect plan to effect His will and purpose for my life here as one minuscule part of His greater purpose for eternity. I am His beloved whether I become an award-winning writer or I continue to struggle just to pay the bills.

My circumstances do not change my identity in Christ. The various roles I play do not change my identity in Christ. My life, on its own, apart from God, is meaningless and insignificant outside of my own little family and circle, and will have no impact on world history. My life in Him, however, is valuable and purposeful and eternal. I only need understand that, own it, and live it. I don’t need to do anything to be valuable because He’s already done it all—I trust and obey and love the One who first loved me, and I commit myself to Him because of that love and the sacrifice of His Son.

Living My Identity

Now to come around to the point. I’ll admit that most of this post reads as very “me-centered.” “I” came to realize, He loves “me,” “I” am valuable to Him. It reads this way because this is an extremely personal post about realizing my own identity—a testimony, if you will. However, the greater message to take away is that it’s all about Him. Everything is about Him.

And so, because of that, it is difficult for me to continue a project that puts focus on something. “My Coke Addiction”….how much more self-centered could I get? And about something so trivial and stupid to boot! If I am going to blog about my life, then it should be focused on God’s lordship of it and the ways He gives me the privilege of serving and experiencing Him.

“My Coke Addiction” gives the impression that a cola and how much of it I consume, of all ridiculous things, is lord of my life…that it somehow dictates my identity and life purpose. What I once found clever I now find distasteful at best. Even if I change the topic of discussion, and I have done so, there’s still that horrible name defining the tone and purpose of what’s written within.

So yes, I still enjoy my soft drinks, but no, it is not the focus of my life. And if it’s not the focus on my life, then why would I allow that idea to perpetuate by continuing in a false identity in the form of a domain name? God will decide what becomes of that aspect of my life, and every other aspect, and in His good time and in accordance to His purpose for me. It does not define me. It’s not even important…because it’s not about me in the first place!

Where to Go from Here

I suppose what I’m getting at is that this might be the last post I make here. I’m still thinking about where to go from here, but I won’t make the same mistake of jumping on an idea without prayerful consideration again. If I do start another blog, I may bring over some of my posts to live there instead…and then again, I may not.

I really don’t know yet. But if I don’t come back here, or one day you happen to notice that this blog no longer exists, that’s why. Nothing is about me or the things of this world. It’s about His glory and majesty. Nothing more, nothing less. My biggest fear at this point is being a poor representation of Him—failing in one or more areas and having that somehow distorted to be a reflection of God.

But even that I will trust to Him. Because Christ does not fail. I fail when I forget to keep my focus on Him. And I will fail many, many more times before I die. Because I’m imperfect. Because I’m human. Because my flesh will still convince me that I can do certain things on my own from time to time. But praise God, He loves me through my periods of self-focus and brings me back to Him again. Even my failures He works together to bring greater glory to Him.  

I am both humbled and blessed to serve Him in any purpose for which He calls—because He doesn’t need me to accomplish His purpose, yet He still allows me to be a part of His plan. He allows us the great privilege of manifesting His glory and majesty through our lives, and those are the things I want to share with the world. The name I use to do that should be a reflection of Him and His glory, not a worldly play on words.

Monday, February 17, 2014

Inbox Dollars Review

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Sorry about the little hiatus, all! I’ve been just a bit busy these days, and not even wanting to look at a computer when I don’t have to probably didn’t help matters much, either. But, I’m back now and today I wanted to do a review of sorts about a site I’ve been testing out for several months now.

Inbox Dollars for a Little Spare Cash

Inbox Dollars is not new, and I’m definitely not the first to write about them. I forget exactly how I came across the site, but I decided to give it a go when I did. So what is it?

Well, Inbox Dollars is a paid email club-like thing. They send you email advertisements and you get 2 cents for every email you confirm having read. Sometimes, the emails give you an opportunity to earn even more if you take action on them. For example, I got an extra 25 cents for signing up for a diabetes newsletter, and an extra dollar once for comparing auto insurance rates.

It also gives you other ways to make money, some of which can be very lucrative if you do a lot of online shopping. I haven’t personally explored any of these because I’m not big on the whole “get all this for free, just pay shipping, but then we’re going to send you a new shipment every month that you do have to pay for unless you jump through 10,000 hoops to send it back and cancel” scene. But that’s just me.

There are also sometimes videos you can watch for a penny here and there, and coupons that you earn money on if you print and redeem them. They give you a little signup bonus, along with some tasks that help you get closer to their $30 payout, so that’s nice. Overall, I’ve found it to be a fun way to zone out, waste a little time, and still feel like you didn’t completely waste your time since you’re letting pennies build up.

The best way to make money with them, other than the offers section, is qualifying for surveys. As a general rule, I don’t much care for paid surveys because it’s so hard to qualify for them. But for those that you can get in on, it helps add to the lump sum, so ya know. The little “spin and win” wheel that you get to play on when you don’t qualify is fun, and sometimes you can win a nickel or so….though I’ve mostly ever won sweepstakes entries.

What I Think of Inbox Dollars

I intentionally held off on writing any kind of review until after I’d reached the payment threshold. I wanted to be sure that they actually do pay before I recommended them to anyone. Well…they do. When I got to $30, I requested a check. They have a $3.00 payment processing fee, which I wasn’t too terribly thrilled about. But they did offer to waive the fee if I could get to $40 within a month.

Well, that sounded good enough and all, but considering it took me 6 months to get to $30, I figured I’d pass on that. Besides, the whole point was to find out if they actually paid. It took a couple of weeks to process, but they did mail me a check for my earnings minus the processing fee. But…they credited my account with $3.00 at the same time to counteract that fee, so I suppose all’s well.

After I got my check, they upgraded me to a “Gold Member”, which sounds nice, but I’m not really entirely sure what that means. More opportunities to make money and faster payouts after I reach the threshold is what they tell me, but I honestly haven’t spent enough time exploring that to say for sure.

Overall, I like the site, though it’s certainly not anything you’re going to be able to quit your day job with. Of course, I knew that going in so I wasn’t disappointed in any way…just thought I’d throw that out there to be clear. I say it’s definitely worth trying, just be sure you have a junk email address to deal with it all to keep from cluttering up your main email. If you want to give it a try, I’d love for you to sign up under my referral link. Just click the picture below to get started:

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Dyshidrosis Vitamin D Cure, Take 3

I do not understand why the universe is DETERMINED to make a liar out of me. Never fails. I can keep my mouth shut about something and it will never change. Life will continue with no issues and everybody’s happy. But the MOMENT I tell someone else about it, it’s all over.

That would seem to be the case with my vitamin D dyshidrotic eczema cure. Remember me telling you last time about only having a small patch on one foot, and that not bothering me very much? Yeah, well….it decided to become a full blown breakout which resulted in several days of itchy misery for me.

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Daddy-Daughter Bonding through Homemade Junkyards

My husband is sorely outnumbered on the gender front in our household. There’s me, of course, and then our four girls. Even the dog is female.

My Grandpa, I think, had a special sympathy toward my husband because he raised four girls, too. They understood each other without ever having to say a word…and my husband is convinced that this situation is the reason my grandfather so dearly loved spending time in his shop and checking on his cows.

Despite the slow, steady, passive-aggressive takeover of estrogen in our family, though, my husband has never felt or acted as though he could not share the things that interest him with our children.