I’m getting just a tad bit anxious about tomorrow. I
survived the trip to Earth Fare ON CAMPUS of a major university with ALL THREE
of my lovely children…and they all lived, so we’re calling it a success. Note
to self: Next time you plan to go to Earth Fare, don’t do it on a Friday night
while all the students have the same idea.
Despite the crowd and the rain and the incessant “I want
this!/Can we get that?/Oooh, what’s this?”’s, it was a good trip. We all got a
plate from the hot bar and ate in the car. S, my youngest, stole ¾ of my salmon
filet, but it’s ok. I ate her salad, so I guess we’re even. The fact that she
did not want her salad and I did want my salmon is irrelevant. I’m just happy
she enjoys healthy foods.
Making my way out of downtown with my loot, I started to
question the wisdom of this decision. Am I really
ready to take this thing on again? I’ve been planning it for so long that I
guess it felt like the day would never come. Now that it’s nearly upon me, it’s
like “Oh crap! Did I really mean to do this?”
C, my husband, has been “helping” to get rid of the
remaining Coke in the house. I’m down to 2 cans and I have no doubt they will
be gone before I go to bed tonight. I had to stop at Ingles for some more
affordable necessities for the family, and one of my rituals with grocery
shopping is to buy a Starbucks Mocha Frappuccino to reward myself for not going
psycho. I got one, despite knowing it was a bad idea, and enjoyed every last
drop of it. Farewell, Starbucks. :’(
Now I’m sitting here just pondering the wisdom of the thing
I’m about to do. I have about 2 hours worth of work I need to do, so it is
possible that I may make it to bed before midnight tonight. Whether or not I
will actually sleep is another thing entirely, but we’ll see.
I know this is the right thing to do. I do. I just know that
tomorrow’s going to be miserable and it’s difficult to
intentionally do
something that you know will make you sick. On the other hand, I’ve been slowly
making myself sick on a daily basis through my lifestyle choices and didn’t
think too much about it at the time. It’s just that the bad kind of sick is
much more enjoyable achieving than the good kind of sick. Yeah, that made no
sense to anyone but me, but there it is.
I’ve just got cold feet, that’s all. I will do this and I
will be successful. I’ve invested too much to back out now and my health is at
stake. I’ll feel better about it after tomorrow’s over with. For now, I refuse
to let fear of discomfort derail me. Onward!
Oh God, you took everyone to Earth Fare? Congratulations on the survival rate. You can do this! :)
ReplyDeleteLOL, Elaine...I did. C thought it would be a fabulous idea. ;) Thanks for the encouragement. No matter how many fails or setbacks I have, I'm going to do this thing. :)
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